Acrylic painting 72” x 48” (183 x 122 cm)
The feeling of unrest that I had in front of people who already “know everything the best” put me in a situation to question my values.
To defend myself from judgment and refusal, I’ve chosen a picture of myself that would rather be in line with what they expect from me to accept me. Because it was so more comfortable and faster to go through situations that I could not choose. Over time, I learned to read the mimic of other people’s needs, and I totally forgot for my own.
I worked a lot, talked about everything except about myself. I have always had a problem to name what is it so special about me, to say what I want or to show what I feel…
I made a move on the canvas, leaving the paint on while I was lost in my thoughts…
And it worked!